Near-Dead
Let me share something personal - as a background for what’s on my mind
I've been near-dead twice. The first time at my birth - which I did not consciously remember until I was near-dead the second time, 26 years old, for 10 hours, after an operation.
The first thing I remember from that experience is that I found myself in total darkness. Out of the darkness two luminous beings came to meet me and I asked: "Where do I know you from?" So the first thing we looked at was my birth, where I ‘met’ them for the first time.
One question and one insight from that first meeting is worth mentioning:
I was willing to go further out into the light instead of down into the body again. They blocked my way, I asked if I could not leave "from here" and they replied: "Nothing is predetermined, you have your free will. We just want to help you understand WHY you want to get away from here.”
And of course, it ended with me choosing to dive back into the body, as you can see.
The second time, I also looked at my life. Just when I had decided I did not want to dive into the body again, a white-collar led my 6-year-old son into the recovery room. Suddenly I was back in the body, looked him in the eyes - and then I was up in the corner again, from where I filled with grief thought: "You’re better off growing up with your father than with that psychopath, I'm married to.”
"I'm ready" I said to the light beings and we streamed away from the body. I became aware that they were no longer "outside" me, that we were a unity consciousness. We streamed on and I became aware that we were thousands of souls in this oneness, compassion and love. We streamed on and the light became more and more golden, and I registered our direction was towards a completely golden light.
Down in the recovery room, they had noticed improvement in my vitals when my son was in the room - and someone had said: "Isn't there a daughter out there, too?" Whereupon my husband's 5-year-old daughter, Terese, came in.
The two light-beings were suddenly separated from me again and encouraged me to look down into the recovery room. Terese stood there with her back to my body and looked straight up to where my consciousness was: "You must not leave me" she said. She repeated the same words, again and again - and I grumbled to the luminous ones: "It's a spell. I cannot move into the light as long as she says those words! ”
Down there, they saw improvement in my vitals and laid Terese up on me, where she alternately cried on by breast, raised her head and said the same words to me. “You must not leave me.” Again and again.
It took me an hour to decide to return to the body. An hour where I looked at how futile the situation was. If I did not "leave" her, I should stay with her father - and if I stayed with that psychopath, I could not be anything to her.
The two said: "Nothing is predetermined" over and over again. Eventually I thought "I will find a solution" - and then I returned to my body.
A few months later I was divorced from him. A year later, I kidnapped Terese from her drug-addicted mother. A year after that, her father filed a lawsuit, wanting custody. I found a hot-shot lawyer and her mother won the lawsuit because she had "voluntarily" trusted Terese into my care. He took up the case once a year, 3 times, and lost each time. The last time my lawyer tapped him on the shoulder and told him, she had my police reviews and injury reports - those she would use next time if he took the case up again. Which he didn’t.
She is still my daughter now 40 years later.
The most important lessons I have taken with me from that experience has to do with heart and consciousness.
The divine energy flows in all life. The more I open my heart to love, compassion and unity, the more unhindered the energy flows through me.
So I listen to my heart, follow my heart.
I know, that nothing is predetermined, I have free will.
This is the background I want to give a few statements from.
The Great Awakening is of course to wake up and SEE all the ugliness that has dominated the world for SO many years, to SEE how they have started wars to divide us - often religious wars - to SEE these dark forces have tried to achieve world domination.
The Great Awakening, to me, also is:
That humans realize that we can rise above the duality and experience unity.
It is the same consciousness that flows in all beings, all life on earth.
The Cabal has an agenda: "Divide and Conquer".
So in order for us NOT to be ‘conquered’ we have to not be divided.
I hope we will find compassion to bridge the divisions, they have created.
About the Cabal: These people are so devastated in their humanity and spirituality that they cannot / will not be united with us. They made that choice a long time ago, when they committed to follow the road to darkness.
I have compassion for them. Which is not the same as being soft on them and their crimes. We have to set boundaries for acceptable behavior. I am in favor of justice and they are best served - IMO - by the death penalty, they will receive. Then they can spend time in the darkness until they, maybe one day, can spot the light.
I am not a Christian, Buddhist, Hindu, Muslim or Jew. I know that there is a divine energy flowing in all life. I am a strong ‘Believer in Higher Power’.
I skip statements that make religion sound like ‘pre-determination’. We have free will - and responsibility to act according to the highest quality in ourselves.
I encourage others to live up to the highest quality in themselves - accepting, that bound to body and personality as we are, the highest - in myself and others - is far from the Divine.